Walk 'til your shoes break.
I have a few questions.
What happened since being a child.
What happened to being a child.
Since when did this change. And why did it have to fuck things up to such a degree.
How do you know for certain who is going to help you out of it in the best way - whatever that is.
I know. You stop being a child the first time your problems aren't solely based on external factors.