I don't remember.

Losing contact with all the precious lessons and battles that made you you adds a funny element of risk to life. Forgetting the paths you've taken means you can easily stumble back and lose your way the same way you did before, in the oh so grand maze of life.

Constant fucking awareness, or you take that turn, back to that muck. You'd so much like to just get it out of your head. Ah, but no. Forgive and forget doesn't work on yourself, because you're the same old person, and without the shitburden of anxiety that's conditioned you to avoid some turns, you'd be doing it all again.